Goatboy wrote:HTS will survive with or without me, but if you lose hope now it's over.
Goatboy wrote:You guys are fucking champions. Every God-damn one of you.
I left without an explanation, and you all deserve much more than that. However, I can't say much more. Use your imagination, but keep it to yourselves. I do have some things to say, though:
HTS is not me. I am not HTS. There have been many people before me who have done much greater things for this site. Better devs, more attentive mods, more influential leaders. I don't know why or how I got to where I am, and I will be the first to say that there are others who could have done a much better job than I.
The reason HTS is still alive is not because of any particular person. I might have helped, but had I never joined in the first place it might be better or worse. Who's to say? I am certain, however, that HTS survives because of the community as a whole. Mods come and go, devs come and go, and individual members come and go, but the spirit of HTS lives on.
This is evident in threads like this. Shit goes down, and after an initial "OMG WAT DO!?" phase, the gears start turning and things get done. New mods replace the old, content gets added, and the overall makeup of HTS changes for the better. Even if, five years down the road, none of the current staff are here, the new staff will be comprised of the old members.
And who knows where HTS will be in five years? I would like to be a part of it, but there is not a lot of certainty in my life right now. In a weird way, HTS has defined myself more than the reverse. I like to think that I will still be able to recognize the mood of HTS later on in life, regardless of who is here, and see a bit of myself in it. In the same way, I hope that I have become a better person because of all of you.
You guys really have no idea how much I fucking love this place. To even attempt to quantify it in words would diminish the meaning to the point of being mere babble. I have checked in a few times over the last month, just making sure things were going alright. Today, however was different. I saw this thread and I shit you not, I was crying my fucking eyes out by page two. The fact that real people with real lives miss me and that I have made a positive change in those lives... that means the world to me.
So what now?
@sanddbox: You probably do have my number. Get it from the PBX? Forget it. Calling me won't do anyone any good. And if you absolutely need to contact me, you know how to find me. Think of my banhammer. Bro <3.
@Kage: Ignore the haters. I know how much you do. You know how much you do. Keep me in mind should I come back later. Say hey to J for me.
@fashizzlepop: You'll do well. Glad to see you're handling things like I taught you.
@Bren: Keep up the recode. You may not be Linus, but you stepped up to the plate and stuck with it.
@Everyone: Keep doing what you do. HTS will survive with or without me, but if you lose hope now it's over. The fact that you guys didn't get all depressed and shit over me fills me with confidence. Move on, innovate, help people, spread knowledge, and for fuck's sake don't do anything stupid.
Well, there are tons of things I probably forgot to say, and many things I could have said much better. I wrote this all in one shot, with little revision. I seriously love this place, the people, the idea, everything. It hurts like nothing else to leave, but for now this is what I need. I'll leave you guys with this:
Yes, that little fucker is me =D
r-ID wrote:Of all the ideas I would really like to see video material here, I don't have much free time, but I might make an video or two myself.
r-ID wrote:Theory can be added before video or as text or in the video itself. Video can highly upgrade learning, it's a lot faster to learn from videos. And I'm not afraid of that. I wish to learn Sometimes i read an hour or two, but once i see it, i understand it completely.
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