First I should start of by a warm welcome, so hello to all of you!
Most of you here know me by now, at least what I portray myself as around here.
Everyday I wake up, I breathe the breath of life, from a world that I am very much dissatisfied in. Everyday I wake up and I attempt to give one hundred percent effort into everything I do, but for what? Here is a world, a damn beautiful world, filled with so many great things like love, technology, music, art, science, physics, etc. Yet, the totality of our existence is filled with such hate, greed, selfishness, desire, evil, lust, and we choose to use the world against each other to enhance those fields.
You have people on the streets that die everyday because they have nothing to eat or can't get to proper shelter. You have people who are literally scared to ask for help, because they are in fear of being shunned, and made fun of publicly. You have people that would suck every minute of life out of you and transfer it to their self, if they had the ability. You have people at war, blowing up cities, killing innocent people, even if it's accidental, etc. You have people that will turn to drugs to cope with life, because it feels as if it's their only alternative to their problems. The list goes on and on and on.
Now, let me get this point across, I have no problem with the people in the military. I myself would not mind joining the military, if I could. I understand that in this state of the world, it is important, and we have threats we must deal with. I have the up most respect to any military personnel. So, you might be wondering now, well that's a bit contradicting, isn't it? In a sense, I suppose you are correct, but I am looking at a much larger scale.
Thinking on this large scale, the constant questions that are going through my head usually are:
Do people have to starve?
Do people have to live on the streets?
Should people be scared to ask for help?
Could we create better alternatives for people that use illegal substances to cope with life?
Is it normal that 10 percent of the US population is depressed?
Is there an alternative we could turn to other than war, such as compromise?
Do we have to pollute the oxygen we breathe everyday?
Pondering upon these questions for so long seems to have turned me into a psychological wreck. The truth to the matter is, that with every flip there is a flop, and if the world had an algorithm there would be at least two statics, good and evil, and while the latter exists in such a large mass, the world would never come to an agreement to work together peacefully.
We have the technology and wisdom, to create a much healthier and safer environment, but why haven't we?
We still haven't made the switch to electric powered cars, nor promoted much use of hybrid powered vehicles. We continue to stick with oil, because of what reason? There aren't many pros v.s cons in this situation. The only pros I can really think of is that 1. They make a shit ton of money off of it. and 2. Almost everyone is still using oil powered vehicles. However, this should not be an excuse to dwell on oil powered vehicles. It's disgusting and is only hurting us as humans, and the planet. We should have better morals then that.
We literally have the technology to create a system, which could irrigate and distribute food out for free. All it takes is a cleverly designed system, which is not by any means impossible to create. So why don't we? Because we don't want to drive out all of the food businesses, and that tax money they bring in? Again, we should have better morals then that.
As everyone always says, safety first! So let's talk about it. In this world, clearly safety is not first, not even close. Yes we take some safety measures, but at the same time, we disregard this. One of the biggest items on the human fatality list is dying from vehicular related crashes. So what do we do, we add a seat belt and an airbag, and pray to whatever god you believe in, that you don't die. Well, ask yourself how much protection that would do if you get hit by a train going full speed, probably not much. Again, with cleverly designed systems this is all avoidable (almost any other vehicle related crashes). So what's stopping us here? A short and reasonable answer is money.
I could sit here and talk about endless things that I see is fucked up, and give you my ideas on how it could be fixed, but the truth of the matter is: It's irrelevant.
I just don't know what to expect from this world anymore, it basically only brings disgust to mind. I feel as if I may have psychological problems, but at the same time, if I didn't feel this way, would that be normal? Just forget about all the worlds problems, when we have the ability to fix them? I know I have made a few dumb decisions in my past, but I honestly believe this is the center of my issues. Ever since realizing all of this and thinking of it in depth about a year ago, I have never felt the same. I can't find the joy in anything I do anymore. I don't care to met new people, since most of the time they are either being ignorant, or trying to show off. I don't care much to have conversations with people in the general public, since most of the time it's propaganda or useless information. I feel as if my entire life, I have tried so hard to achieve simple goals, but they now feel pointless, and I feel undetermined to accomplish them . So I sit here now and wonder how to cope with all of this, before I go back to the old me.
To be honest, hackthissite and one or two other hacking communities is the only place I find time worth spending. I try my best to get along with everyone, and to help out as much as I can. Hell, I can't tell you how many hours I have spent in pm's or responding to messages, just to help people out here, even if it's the silly things I don't have time for, like teaching someone how to get around in the linux terminal. So yeah, basically this is what I have, hts, it's what keeps me going.
This is just a little rant of mine, to let people know how I truly feel, which is sort of breaking one of my set rules when using any hacker alias, but 'whatevs'.
For those that know